I am a kid of a grandparent (again). I am the one who knew
what it took to make it in the world, and have achieved almost
all that I wanted. I worked from the time I was legal (well, you
lied about my age once, to get me a paper route). I'm the kid
that watched our family being torn apart due to my brother's
selfishness (drug use). I am the kid that acted out for a while,
for attention, only to find your hands already full - so I
straightened up and took my life in my own hands.
I am the kid you don't need to worry about.
I am the one that got a job, married (divorced 4 years later, but
that's another story), moved out, and all the while watched and
ached as my brother tormented, controlled and hurt you. I'm
the kid that distanced myself from this chaos. To me, distance
equaled pain relief.
I'm the kid that didn't want to see the child my brother
produced, because I knew once I saw her, I'd be lost. I was
right, my heart went out to her and my pain came back. My
god child, my niece. What a lethal weapon.
I'm the kid that saw you eventually take this little girl in to raise
her. "But only while daddy is in drug rehab, and mommy needs
to date." I'm the kid that laughed at you while you played
Cagney& Lacy with different cars, writing down license
numbers in your little journal. I'm the first one that didn't
understand what was going on.
I became the kid that went to court, wrote letters, mediated
fights, hid my niece, and in some way, began trying to take
control of your life. 'I could see clearer than you, I was able to
want my brother dead.'
I am the kid that came to understand - you do what you do
because you love. Pure and Simple.
I am still the kid that resents you not having what my friends'
parent's have. freedom.
I am the kid that loves you, hurts for you , cries with you and
wants you to have what you love the very most. I am the kid
that will do anything to make this happen.
I am the kid that created this site so you may have some of sort of community.
A place where you could find others like you, because I have come to understand that
you are not alone.
I am your OTHER child.
